Why it's important to live in the NOW!
๐ ๐ธ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ซ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ, โ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง & ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ.โ
See death presented itself to me at the age of 7 when my mom got #breastcancer
I saw the fear in everyoneโs eyes that my mom might not live through it. I saw it in my dadโs (my hero) eyes.
Death didnโt take my mom
She beat the cancer & is still here (thank God!)
Later, at 16, death did show up this time.
Pancreatic cancer.
I had just turned 16 yrs old in April and my dad was diagnosed that next month
The father who called me his โbest buddyโ, the father who told me he wouldnโt leave me or die because as a child I had this feeling of fear I would lose him one dayโฆ
He lived for another 5 TOUGH months.
In pain,
Unable to really eat,
withering away to skin and bones, with his beautiful soul still intact.
I was there when he was on his death bed, cleaning out the foam from his mouth with a sponge because his body was shutting down.
Seeing him go back and forth between this world and the next. Preparing him for what was next to come.
I was a child watching the STRONGEST person I had EVER KNOWN, super heros had NOTHING on this manโฆ and I was watching him die a slow death right in front of me.
6 months later, my brother was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkinโs lymphoma, stage 4.
Fear set in AGAIN.
Now, I could lose my brother.
The brother would pretend with me even though he was 12 yrs old than me.
The brother who gave me his stuffed beaver at 5 yrs old and told me it could really talk to me but I just had to listen.
Even though my brother was given an estimate to live for 10 ish yearsโฆ he is STILL WITH US 20 plus yrs later & has been in remission for 5 yrs!!
And you know what the doctors said, โI donโt know how you beat thatโฆ but we donโt think it is coming back!!โ
6 months after that, my beautiful & only grandmother I had ever known, had been taken from us by my uncle to โtake care of herโ along with her money and more expensive items she owned.
She died.
Grammy (as we called her) died from a broken heart bc of losing her beautiful son, my dad.
And at 17, I took my uncle to court over my grandmotherโs body because my uncle wasnโt honoring my grandmotherโs wishes.
She had written down her wishes on paper for my mom & dad but had never made it an actual legal living will.
So my AMAZING mother wanted those wishes honored along with the rest of our family, so I had to take my uncle to court because I was blood, my mom wasnโt.
We โwonโ half her ashes and honored her last wishes
The point of me telling you this part of my storyโฆ
Because there is more to my story, ISโฆ
With my younger years having so much death, Iโve always wanted to honor these beautiful peopleโฆ and myself.
I just didnโt know how to.
But Iโve learned and am ALWAYS learning
But right NOWโฆ
I learned, for a FACT, that we have this life.
We have it RIGHT NOWโฆ
It is all just a matter of HOW ARE WE GOING TO LIVE IT?!!
Tomorrow is not promised.
But right nowโฆ RIGHT NOW IS
It is just about..
what are you going to do about your right NOW?!
How are you going to live for YOURSELF??
How are you going to for ALL of those who donโt or didnโt have that chance?!
Sending much love & light to you my beautiful friend as you take in my message to you today